Hello..there are many things u have mentioned in the description which require thorough evaluation.
U may or may not have a psychiatric illness,u may or may not require medications but it's always good to seek help with the professional.
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I also want to tell you that u must weigh pros and cons of taking medications if at all u r prescribed by your doctor.if Ur problems are so severe then there's no harm taking a tablet and being alright everyday rather than suffering cz of it.
Also stigmatising psych issue and their medicine will do no good to anybody.infact they are the saviours. proper treatment could have saved SSR but m sorry to say that the stigma in our society towards psychiatrist and mental illness is so huge.
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dear friend you need a consultation with psychiatrist to solve whatever it is.
for consultation u can book an appointment online through practo to avoid any inconvenience