U ve a past history of depression and a family history of anxiety disorder.  D last episode of depression had really lasted for very long because of which u were not functioning well for 3yrs. After all dese u cannot afford to still bargain over taking medication or not. Research has shown dat Allopathic Antidepressant have good evidence for treating anxiety and depression. I advice u to  think about d benefits over d risks. Seek help at d earliest for early recovery.