Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation. It's very difficult for a working professional to sacrifice the career due to unavoidable suitation like your case. It will cause frustration and stress in your life. Life is not going to be the same for ever. You will see new challenges and new opportunities as you move on. So don't take it as end. Suggest you to take a counseling support to first level assess your current suitation to manage your emotions and frustration. In that process, you will also see a different prepective of your suitation and the opportunities to utilize for family as well as your next career. Don't hesitate to talk to counseling experts.

It is evident that your lofty dreams about your career have been trashed by the arrival of the new-comer. Because of the idea of what you strongly believe you should be, you are unable to deal with the reality of who you are right now. That is what is making you jealous, restless and anxious at others’ victories. And who is the easiest escape route to channel that frustration? Your son. Subconsciously you most probably feel that he is the reason for all of this. We have to break for a second here! Is it he who is responsible or you who is responsible? He never asked to be given birth to! It is you who have desired to have a baby and hence brought him to life. So let’s not punish him for what he has not done! You owned your choice of giving birth but now you don’t want to own the consequence! That’s just not how it works. Solution? Wait until he’s a little more older. Skill yourself up in the meanwhile and get back into the job market. Make money and hire a nanny for him to be taken care of when you’re not available! And don’t be too attached to the idea in your head about who you think you should be. It is okay to aspire but it is not okay to be broken when the aspiration doesn’t meet reality!