hellow dear..it seems that you are overburdined..its ok just relax and face the situation.your symptoms seems that you need proper medicine consult to a nearby classical homoeopath..this symptomes with surely subside after that..
Next Steps
take proper rest..try to mange your grief..as you have to moove farward remember to be healthy we have life within us.so for your kids just moove on try to be happy with theier happyness..
Health Tips
do take care of yourself..start meditation along with homoeopathic constitutional medicine..
if you are near lucknow you can also consult to me.