hi there i have read about ur problem and i understand what u mean. There is no problem ever so difficult whuch human mind is incompetent to solve. But sometimes we get bogged down by just a part or aspect or face of an indepth problem. counselling / psychotherapy is a kind of assistance which helps in aquiring the skill of problem solving and keeping similar or other psychological challenges well within control. It is not a magic pill and wonders happen but not in a day. It requires involvement and efforts in ur part as well. Feel free to consult ur problems in person. Any psychiatrist or a psychologist can be visited whom u think can help u. Dont hold ur self from getting stronger by delaying this consultation.