I've been so upset and sad and feeling guilty and disgusted with who I am thats its starting to ruin my relationship. He tries to be there for me and I just freak out at him all the time and I feel so fragile and after I get angry at him I hate myself and wish I never did. Ive never abused drugs or drank excessively. Sometimes im not like this and sometimes I feel like I am madly in love and getting stuff accomplished in life and other times I feel like theres no point in living anyways so.