Hello Friend, thanks for reaching out here for help. Yes, failure of your first love will hurt you and it will take time to recover. But equally, if you notice your love had affected a married couple's love and life. You may have your side of justification for this, but you also need to respect other side as we. You need to accept the reality in life and move on. You may need guidance to overcome this emotional stress.
Next Steps
Take a guidance of psychology counselor locally or you can consult me online.