Hello dear, I can somewhat understand the distress and despair at your current condition. It must truly be appreciated that you have chosen to share your problems on this platform rather than just living in isolation with your problems. However the next logical step towards improving your health will be to seek a consultation with a psychiatrist or a clinical psychologist near you for comprehensive assessment and management.. In all likelihood psychotherapy or counseling will benefit your condition, the need for medication will need further assessment. However please be assured that your condition can be helped with proper guidance and assistance. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future..