Hi,
I believe you are talking about yourself. I understand how you feel having this condition. It is so evident that there are lot of disturbing thoughts, ideas and corresponding emotions running in your mind that is leading you experience all these. It is highly recommended that you see a psychotherapist AT THE EARLIEST to help you handle the situation. Never delay!
Next Steps
Visit a psychotherapist. You can find experienced and trusted therapists at Medisex Foundation, Bangalore. Google and get in touch.