Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. When you are emotionally disturbed, you mind will be clogged with lot of negativity and such behavior are normal. In  such times, don't think of any major or hasty decisions and don't be decisive of about life. . Rather ask for help. Take a counseling help to control and manage your negative thoughts first. Then you can slowly work on the other problems to overcome depression.

Ur case need immediate help from any Mental health professional like psychologist or doctor , or else u can consult me online or offline. Suicidal thoughts are advance symptoms of any mental uneasy situations. Do not dealy , take action immediately. We are here all the time to help our patients all around the globe.

Meet your psychiatrist immediately

There are a couple of things that could be happening here consider the following... 1. You are depressed 2.you are anxious 3. You are depressive and anxious 4. You need a venting point or a person. 5. You need to have a confide something. Please consider the above and if the answer is yes to any one be in touch with a psychologist asap

Hi seems like depressive phase. please consult asap with me or any psychologist

Please seek a professional assistance immediately. Consult a psychologist.