Hi dear..
I believe that you are seeking answers of your life. It might be because you are coming close to your real self. You might be on your spiritual journey. I need more information to understand your state of mind in a better way so that right direction will be given to u.
Next Steps
You can consult:
https://www.practo.com/bangalore/therapist/dr-seema-aggarwal-psychologist
Health Tips
Practice Meditation
Pranyam/ Deep breathing