Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help. I can understand your suitation. Relationship management is a tricky subject and there is no single formula to make it successful. It depends based on individual or suitation. Sometimes, the way you express your desires or expectations could be a problem and can be misunderstood  by others. Suggest you to take a professional counselling help to assess yourself first to figure out where is your gap and why you get such negative impressions about relationship. In such discussions you will also see a different perspective within you and how to handle the suitation better.  A small open discussion can change your life. Don't hesitate.