Hi..
I understand you are lacking good emotional support. But i am glad that you want to take stand for yourself . I suggest you :
1. Accept the reality that you are facing hardships
2. Accept you can take control of your life
3. Be Fearless
4. Take small step towards your freedom. Eg You can choose Work from home jobs
5. Be aware of people who can support you like Your BF, friends,relative etc.
6. Talk to Counselor
Next Steps
Book online consultation with Psychologist
Health Tips
Practice-
Mindfulness
Deep breathing
Journaling