Hello ,
Feel Sorry for your current bad situation. But do not lose hope. All be right a day. Just take care about health first now.
Next Steps
Do some Meditation... start listening to pray songs or whatever you like. Do some creative activity to change your mood and remove your depression.
you can contact me directly for more help
Health Tips
Take balanced and nutritious diet. Don't think for your next baby atleast for coming one year. Raw papaya, Pineapple, Pizza, Burger, Chinies foods must to be totally avoided in your routine diet.
take care dear .
wish you good health