This amount of pain is difficult to fathom also What I feel is you are going through grief period I suggest you to talk and pour your heart out Consult with me or any psychologist for therapy and counseling online, but please do. All the best

Hello Ma'am! This is indeed a major irreparable loss to you.However, you need to take care of yourself  and  for that it's better to stay close to your close friends and relatives who brings a ray of optimism and positivis vibes in your life.You need to pour out your heart to someone you trust and share strong bond with,as it will lessen your grief to some extent and help you feel little better.If you keep on internalising your thoughts ,feelings and emotions, it will take toll on your well being both physical as well as mental.

I'm really sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. Grief is a natural and complex process, and it's understandable that you're experiencing a range of emotions during this difficult time. It's important to remember that it's okay to grieve and that everyone copes with loss differently. Some suggestions that might help you navigate this period of grief: Allow yourself to grieve: It's important to acknowledge and accept your feelings of sadness, anger, and pain. It's okay to cry and express your emotions in a way that feels comfortable to you. Bottling up your feelings may prolong the healing process. Seek support: Even though you mentioned you don't feel like sharing this with anyone, consider reaching out to trusted friends, family members, or a counselor who can offer a listening ear and emotional support. Sometimes, just talking about your feelings can provide a sense of relief and help you process your grief. Join a support group: Connecting with others who have experienced similar losses can be beneficial. You may find comfort in sharing your experiences, hearing others' stories, and learning coping strategies from people who are going through or have gone through similar situations. Support groups can be found online or in your local community. Take care of yourself physically: While it may be difficult, try to maintain a routine that includes proper nutrition, exercise, and sleep. Grief can impact your appetite and sleep patterns, so be gentle with yourself but also try to prioritize self-care as much as possible. Create a memorial or ritual: Finding a way to remember and honor your mother can provide a sense of connection and comfort. This could be as simple as creating a photo album or writing letters to her. You could also consider participating in activities she enjoyed or doing something in her memory, like donating to a cause she cared about. Consider professional help: If your grief becomes overwhelming and starts to significantly impact your daily life, it might be beneficial to consult a mental health professional such as a therapist or counselor. They can provide guidance, coping strategies, and support tailored to your specific needs. Remember, healing takes time, and there is no set timeline for grief. Be patient with yourself and allow yourself to mourn in your own way. If your grief persists and starts to affect your overall well-being, don't hesitate to seek professional help.

I can understand..suddn demise of mother definitely make u deep u would ..but normal grief reaction definitely should be recovered max within 6 months according to latest guidelines.. so still u feeling like this then definitely u should consult