Hi, Till you are not mentally healthy, you can't have a good relationship. Before starting or ending any relationship, try to solve your challenges and get help from a professional. You can talk with her honestly and explain that you want to find a solution and seeking the help of a professional. I have doubt about your OCD... I think your suspicious or doubtful is not related to OCD. There is another reason which a psychologist can help you to find a solution. As I know, OCD has other symptoms...Also it can be related to your childhood or family history... Anyway you need a professional help from a psychologist. Do take care!

OCD needs to be addressed asap otherwise it may get complicated. It can be well treated with counseling sessions and homeopathic medicine if required.

Follow relationship rules and set up boundaries. Consult psychologist to have broader view how to deal with problems and resolve conflicts

You are just 20 years old, means still an adolescent, so I would like to say something to you, keeping the OCD aside. Asking about physical relationship with Ex is very hurting no matter it's a male or female. Generally people share themselves, when they feel comfortable, because they too seek a strong, healthy, and trusted  relationship. Try to think progressively. If you have OCD you have to consult a psychotherapist.

Hi Focus on present day communication with her. Follow relationship rules.build your communication with her by establishing trust, empathy and compassion.  Every person has made errors, do be non judgmental.

Hello there I can understand what you might be going through. It might be hard for you to distract yourself from such thoughts that are repeatedly disturbing you. Don't worry, consult a good therapist or a psychologist as soon as possible. You can also contact me and I will try to help you towards your recovery. Let's discuss your issues in detail so that you can get towards your solutions. Take care. Stay safe and strong. Everything will be alright. You got this!

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