I understand your concern. You seem to be suffering from anxiety symptoms from whatever you have mentioned. However more clarity is needed regarding your actual problem to decide whether it is ocd or not. It is easily manageable with appropriate treatment. You should always look at the benefits of meds versus risks. Some structured therapy sessions also along with regular medical help might be needed for you. Consult your psychiatrist for your current crisis. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is also available.

Ocd has a waxing n weaning course where the symptoms worsens during period of stress. If proper treatment is taken den the fluctuations in d symptoms n course of illness is better. So  medication is must n not less dan 2yrs. It's not d time to bargain over some trivial side effects of d meds. Look at d flip side. At least wit meds u vil be symptom free. Start on meds n consult a psychiatrist to kNo d optimum dose for u. N stay on regular follow up.