Hi there,
A detailed medical and psychiatric history is always needed for every case.Also Mental status examination is also recommended for case to come for a diagnosis and its management accordingly.
Remember,You are not alone in this world who has under gone stressful event like Covid. There are lots of people who have undergone loss of work.
Life is like a roller coaster; sometimes good things happening and sometimes bad .Bit one thing is good… there is help available.
Next Steps
Do talk with your friends and family about your problems.
Do Regular exercises and yoga.
Do meditation.
People do get negative thoughts of various kinds like you mentioned.But don’t act on these impulses.
Keep trying to get the job.
Health Tips
Don’t shy from taking help from a mental health professional .
Be positive in your thoughts.