I had what was termed a nervous breakdown in 2015. It was bad. Lasted two weeks. I became delusional. I thought federal agents where trying to kill me. I sent out weird emails, phone calls, etc.. I have had 5 more sense then. The last one was in October. I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me and why it keeps happening. I shut down. Can't remember what happened during the break down and act weird until I come out of it. I've tried multiple times to see a psychiatrist but I dont have ins