Hi. I appreciate that you took a step forward towards your health. I can understand that it must be looking difficult for you to manage these emotions, however, you may learn to manage your emotions and feel better with the help of counselling.
You may consider taking help from a psychologist, share your issues in detail and start with counselling.
Next Steps
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