Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your your concerns. Relationships issues, especially marriage issues causes tremendous stress.
Discuss your problem with any close friends or family members who cares about you.
If you hesitate to speak to them, then take a professional marriage counselling support. I am sure you will be able to see a different prepective about yourself and about your problems with suitable solution to approach.
Next Steps
Don't hesitate to consult a a marriage counselor directly or online. Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo.