Hi there, first of all I appreciate you asking for help because it is the first step in healing. I understand you are suffering from some sleep issues and are having certain negative thoughts. These can be symptoms of common mental health issues like depression or anxiety. I would suggest you to undergo complete evaluation by a psychiatrist for further management.
Please, don't hesitate to seek help because mental health issues are treatable.
Next Steps
Consult a psychiatrist for further management.
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