Hello, I am working in IT. Just move to new company. Overall company is very supportive, opportunities are great but I am unable to understand anything during meetings ( wheather it's one on one or between multiple functions). The anxiety, panic kicks in. I know what i need to do but I am so scared/afraid that I freeze. It's a horrible feeling that someone tell me simple task and I can't do it due to so much of overthinking. I can't remember what 2 mins ago someone has said something, and this is going on in loop. There is no attention, no Focus lack of confidence, anxieties etc. It's been 2 months that I have been crying at night like child, Thinking I don't know what to do.. I did what i could do but I don't know what to do next. Always thinking somehow to survive a day( no problem with my job) without this so much of overthinking and anxieties. This is affecting my health as I lost so much of weight and theres sometimes pain in my heart. I dnt know why.