U are in right decision. U need counselling and psychotherapy. Medicine may be needed but not Now.Now u can go through homoeopathic doctor and psychologist online or offline.
U are now suffering from depression, anxiety disorder. I think these are the primary symptoms. May be there is in deep mood disorder is playing its role.
I think that there is something in ur past history like bad incidents, worse memory, long lasting grief, childhood trauma, etc.
Unless u can learn how to fight with it u cant beat it.
Health Tips
increase ur self confidence.
do regular exercises, yoga etc.
take nutritious healthy food.
take proper supplement s.
avoid too much social media.
give time to urself,it is important that we know our self properly.