Hi dear, sorry to know about your situation. First of all don't hurry yourself. It won't help. Share your thoughts with your family members or close friends or siblings. About bad relationship, it may be because of your depressed mood or may be vise versa. But you can overcome this with proper help. You are not alone in this struggle.

Relationship issues generally have many things complicating them. Sorting these need detailed discussion and contemplation. We need to learn how not to get stuck in troubled situations and learn skills to overcome these difficulties. Its a slightly time consuming process but surely pays off in the end. Meet a counsellor. Also homoeopathic Medicines help in a very safe and effective way to build internal resilience. Choose to stand up for yourself unapologetically.

U need to consult a Psychiatrist for above symptoms. Medicine and psychotherapy might be helpful