Really sorry to be hearing all this . You must be in a lot of pain mentally I presume. The first and foremost thing to calmly do is introspection. That is you need to ask yourself keeping all the points you just listed here jn the message is being witg him making you feel comfortable, happy , free and loved ?
Think about this calmly and with a free mind . You will get the answer to your questions after a little thinking. Are you really happy or does this marriage union make you feel complete ? Irrespective of what your answer maybe that is your personal choice
You need to then decide thr course of action once your absolutely sure about what exactly do you what out of this from him as an individual.
Wishing you good health 🙏
Hoping this helps a little
Stay strong nonetheless
Next Steps
take deep breaths, calm your mind and let the thoughts flow in and introsepct
Health Tips
consult a professional psychologist/ counselor once you have decided or if you need any further guidance at all or even if your stuck take guidance.