It may be helpful to see a mental health professional and discuss your situation with them. You could call the Tata Institute of Social Sciences, iCall helpline and talk to a trained professional, their no. Is: 022 25521111 (mon - sat, 8am - 10pm) If you want to see someone in person, you could visit VIMHANS Hospital, nehru nagar, New Delhi and seek a clinical psychologist. You may ask for Dr. Neetu Rana. She is a consultant clinical psychologist at VIMHANS.