General loss of empathy, feeling and emotions. I laugh, talk even shed tears at times but I can see myself playing false emotions while doing all these. Better way to describe suppressed and at times false emotions. I express mostly myself in my head rather than in words or actions. I lie uselessly. I know that I am lying for no reason even to strangers. I have seen a few psychologists. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar, Borderline personality disorder and mild depressive episode. But I think I am yet to get my actual diagnosis.