Hi , at this age whatever u have shared is not uncommon. If u see it complicated, then it is. Whatever way u perceive it, that's the way it is. Work out with urself on ur areas of strength n weakness and bring clarity in what u want from all areas of life. Change is permanent but are u ready to adapt n be at ease with change is needed to be looked upon. Tc
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