Hi there, i can really undersatnd you from what you are going throgh in you life, in these few sentences you talked about your decision to end life, which is a serious concern. Being a teenager you have many things which can't be explained. I adivice you to talk to your elders for support or a close friend or well wisher or your college counsellor. The things you are facing are completely solvable, so don't take any drastic decisions. If can consult a local psychiatrist he wil be helping you out to deal with your isssues. Wishing you for your speedy recovery.