Hi, I understand what you are facing. But suicide is not an option here. If you can't talk to your parents or your in laws side.. Speak to a friend... If no friend available... then kindly seek expert advise
Next Steps
Kindly meet a Psychiatrist and a psychologist to start medications and therapy and counselling immediately.
Health Tips
You have'nt done anything wrong... So why are you giving up on your life. Think... Ask yourself if your husband is really worth it ?