Hi... There are a range of possible factors that are impacting your mental well-being. The loss of your mother and the grief that you might have repressed appears to be the root of your suffering. Being a mother for the first time and the environment at your workplace and home are adding to your poor mental health. I believe you have not grieved enough to let your pent-up emotions come out. In this novel situation (motherhood) you are probably missing your mother at a subconscious level and missing her presence. You need to take Grief Counselling to overcome these pent-up feelings and to learn to deal with the challenges of being a working mother.
Next Steps
Consult a Psychologist.
Grief Counselling and Personal Guidance is required.
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Mr. Gunjan Maithil
Senior Psychologist
Cell: nine six seven one three zero three one three four
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