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Dear Sir You seem to be quite distressed. Talk to your friend and family about how you are feeling.do not keep keep your thoughts and feelings to yourself. Please see a psychiatrist at the earliest as you need a detailed evaluation to understand your problems and come to a proper diagnosis. Treatment will depend on the outcome of assessment. See a psychiatrist in person immediately. I know things might seem really difficult for you at the moment but many people in similar situation are able to cope up with proper treatment and support. Thanks Regards Dr Ankita Mishra