Hello,
It certainly sounds like a difficult time for you .
Life becomes very challenging unless we don’t have some perspective to our problems as our sufferings then engulf us.
Next Steps
Try and understand there is a difference between hurt and harm similar to pain and suffering.Pain is what you are going through and suffering is where your thoughts are taking you . Reframe your thinking and find even the moments of positive incidents and thinking .Try and be solution oriented
Health Tips
Seek professional help if necessary please