Hi, Consult immediately to overcome this. A total drugless therapy Hypnotherapy & CBT will help you. Take care

First of all consult psychiatrist and second thing is thoughts are  not equal to actions. Some time we feel anger and have thoughts to hit other but we choose not to act on these thoughts while considering consequences of acting on our thoughts. in  the same way you can have thoughts but can choose to not to act on thoughts . Accept thoughts as they are without blaming yourself for having these thoughts. It would be difficult to do for you  but not impossible .

Hi, Consult a psychiatrist immediately

Please connect with a psychiatrist immediately

Connect psychiatrist

Hi, You need therapy sessions and need to consult a psychiatrist for proper guidance.

Consult psychologist

I'm truly sorry to hear about what you're going through, and it's important to get professional help. Speaking with a mental health professional or therapist can provide you with the support and guidance you need to address these thoughts and find healthier ways to cope with them. Please don't hesitate to reach out to a professional for help. They are there to support you in difficult times, and you don't have to go through this alone. Your well-being is important, and therapy can be a crucial step towards finding relief and understanding these thoughts better.

Seek counseling sessions immediately.

Dear concerned, You are young and you can overcome a dependable state first with proper medication support  then the psychotherapeutic process. Om and blessings

If you've been facing such urges, and are unable to resist them, it's essential that you consult a mental health professional. It won't just help you to control your urges but also recognize your triggers which provoke such urges. Also in time, mental health intervention will also help you alter such urges.