Hi there,
Life can get hard at times, but giving up is never the solution. You rightly said that such an act would hurt your father, alongside everyone else who loves you. I believe it is essential for you to see a psychologist. Both of you can together work through your problems. Figure out the root of what is bothering you and try to come up with practical solutions to help you find meaning and happiness in life again. For the time being, perhaps you can start by meeting one or two close friends for short periods of time, doing things that brings you joy in order to start feeling small moments of happiness again.
Next Steps
Visit a psychologist
Health Tips
Try to enlist and appreciate each happy moment of your life in past and re live the happiness and feel blessed. This may help you to connect with good mood again. Do some exercise everyday.