Hello dear, I can somewhat sense the distress and pain being faced by you. This may be related to Acute Stress reaction that you possibly have experienced. Hence my suggestion for you is to seek a consultation with Psychiatry department in your college, they should be able to help you. A combination of medication and psychological intervention should be able to help you. As a budding medical professional, you should not hesitate or delay in seeking help.  Psychiatric or mental health problems can be effectively treated and helped. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.