I think u have some mental trauma or depression or anxiety etc.Some times sexual assault ,childhood abuse,mental harrassment etc also causes such problems. U must consult psychologist onlone or offline as soon as possible and take care of ur mental health . Every minute passes ur problems are more worse than before.u have to start treatment immediately . Best wishes...

Hello I think you are too much overwhelmed by thoughts and emotions which may be distressing for you thats why may be you are not able to feel anything. It can be related to some trauma you recently faced or facing for a long time. You need emotional healing. Alcohol can't be a solution because it will lead you to feel more disconnected with your emotions and can lead to other problem called 'Addiction'. Visit clinical psychologist for regular psychotherapy sessions. It will help you to develop better insight to your problem and will heal you deeply.