Hi Thank you for sharing on practo. But you haven't posed any question in the above description. I assume you are looking to get out of this state of mind. You have described symptoms of depression for which you shall have to visit a psychiatrist as medicines will help you stabilize your mood. You should definitely get counseled as sharing your frustrations and negativity will make you feel better. Please find a counselor and psychiatrist near you soon before it gets worse. You can use the practo search engine for finding the specialists near your area.