Hello,
I understand that you are feeling depressed right now due to the present situation,it seems you take the words of your father seriously and get affected by it.That is the cause of the low self confidence.
Next Steps
I would suggest you to consult a psychiatrist doctor and start medication as severe depression needs medication.Once you start medication you can take counselling sessions through a psychotherapist and you will be able to overcome the depression.
Health Tips
Try to avoid taking your father's words seriously and instead try to bring the focus on yourself.