My dear friend , sorry to know about this loss in your life . Parents are precious to each & every being . You have to grow strong enough to handle & motivate your confidence and you can do it with a systematic support from a mental health practitioner.
Next Steps
You need to attend a few sessions of grief counselling, by a Senior Psychologist . Try tele consultation with me . I have experience of handling bereavement . Pl consult at the earliest .
Health Tips
You can immediately begin your sessions to cope up with such natural grief period that you are holding on with.