Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. You are right, depression will imbalance both your body and mind by inducing such negative thoughts and sleeplessness, nervousness etc. Holding such emotional disturbance within you is not adviced. Recommend you to take a counseling support to recover from this suitation. You can reach me online for further evaluation or reach out to any psychology counselor nearby.

Feeling low, having crying spells, sleep and appetite disturbances, and difficulty in concentration and attention are some of the signs of Depression. Consult a Psychiatrist for a detailed assessment. It is likely with medication and counseling the symptoms will improve. If you are feeling suicidal or hopeless consult a Psychiatrist immediately.

I understand your distressful situation. You seem to be suffering from depressive symptoms including anxiety and sleep disturbance. However more clarity is needed regarding your problem to decide on the severity of your condition. Putting up with the feeling that something might go wrong with your dear ones is indeed exhausting. Don't worry it is not your fault, it is the hormonal and chemical fluctuations in your brain as a result of stress which is taking a toll on your mental health. It is easily manageable with appropriate treatment, so that dysfunction due to the same can be reduced and your quality of life will improve. Some counselling sessions and if needed medical help might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is available.