Hello my friend...just remember "Broken heart and shattered dreams are key mentors for weaving a glorious destiny."...Consult nearest psychiatrist as you require detailed counseling session and you may require medications to solve your problems as many things can't be discussed in forum like this...With that fallow relaxation techniques like yoga, meditation,avoid alcohol, smoking, coffee, tea...have good sleep and develop healthy food habits..good luck

Dear friend, Sorry to hear that....Everything exists in this world with its polar opposite ...happiness unhappiness, night day, hope frustration..... probably you invested in hope a lot. You would have imagined a lot of future with her and that's how this emptiness. We all live not in present but in future anticipation..... that's why you find life without her not possible. No one knows what was in store of your relationship, though you would like to believe that it would have been ideal. If she would have left you after marriage for someone, it would have been more disastrous, though nothing is in your hands then and now. She is looking for happiness else where and so should you.life goes on...its your fixed assumption that she would have been the only one, the ideal, etc etc.Do one exercise take out all the unpleasant incidents with her, combine them and make a movie and play inside yourself...repeat it and focus on how bad / embarrassed you felt after each incident. Take a counseling help.

Hello, Wonderful gratitude which you showed for your mom and sister. Great that you are still living and wanted to find a way to live happily. Go get a professional help in your city and achieve what all you have dreamt.