Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. Talk to a psychologists and ventilate your emotions, feelings and concerns. I am sure you will get a different perspective about yourself and about your problems. Also a suitable solution can be worked out.

Feeling low, having crying spells, sleep and appetite disturbances, and difficulty in concentration and attention are some of the signs of Depression. Consult a Psychiatrist for a detailed assessment. It is likely with medication and counseling the symptoms will improve. If you are feeling suicidal or hopeless consult a Psychiatrist immediately.