Hello, Obsessive Compulsive disorder (OCD) can be a very distressing experience to oneself. The thoughts will force you into actions (compulsions) and make the person feel helpless. However please note that OCD is a treatable condition, and help can be provided to you. Hence please seek a consultation with a psychiatrist for comprehensive assessment and further management. Usually OCD responds well to a combination of medication and psychological intervention. Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.