Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here in. When in depression, you will behave to staying alone and away from interest areas. In fact this will further aggregate the level of depression.
Take the courage to ask for professional help to ventilate your emotions, feelings and concerns to first relieve yourself. Then with such open discussions, you will be able to see a different prepective about yourself and about your problems. Surely you will find Short-term and long-term solutions for your problem.
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Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo for further evaluation and recommendation. Be positive. You will be alright soon.