Hello Friend, Good that you are seeking a help here. I can understand your suitation and appreciate your maturity to balance the life.
You need a little guidance to control your anger which is a normal expression of your emotional stress about your husband's behaviors, only caution is it should not affect your long term relationship.
Take a counseling support to understand the ways to manage your stree and also relationships dynamics to change your husbands alcoholic habbit.
Next Steps
Feel free to reach out to me online through Practo for further detailed evaluation and suitable recommendation that you can follow practically to overcome this problem. Be positive. You will both will be alright soon.