I understand your concern. It is however unclear what exactly is your fear of losing people about and the mistrust with the information you provided. You need to undergo a detailed evaluation with a psychiatrist to decide on the severity of your condition. However it is manageable with appropriate treatment. Some counselling sessions along with medical help also might be useful for you. I would also be more than happy to help you with that if you are looking for online assistance. Discussions will be held confidential. You can directly consult with me through Practo as needed. Online chat consultation is also available.

When you know that life of any relationship is not in your control, you let go of the control There must be someone whom you trust completely, it could be your mom, someone you have belief in,.. Start from there and let go of the outcome And regarding the imagination, we all live in our imagined world's...we have our stories Letting go is the most practical panacea You may seek a counseling/therapy session with a professional