Hello, Whether or not you are suffering from Borderline personality disorder cannot be judged from a brief narrative. Diagnosing Borderline personality traits/disorder is a very complex task which will require few sessions of interview and some psychological tests. Hence please do not speculate, and rather seek am appointment with a psychiatrist near you for comprehensive assessment and further management. Borderline personality can be helped through a combination of medication and psychological intervention Hope this helps you. Best wishes for your health and future.