Hi there! Sounds like you’ve got a lotttt on your plate, with the divorce and longing for a child, can’t even imagine what you’re feeling! Noone will understand what you’re feeling because they are not experiencing your life, you are. They are in their own world experiencing their own life. I may not know your life, but I do understand loneliness and uncertainty to my own extent so here’s a thing or two I’ve learnt about it: Learning how to be alone is a superpower. The more you create a void with yourself, the more you start desperately seeking to fill that void, and the world doesn’t like desperate behaviour. Everyone is running on their own biological clock so the idea that everyone’s life is settled by a certain age is just society’s way to generalise but that’s not how it works. Things are happening for you in your own time, for your own good. The right guy will come at the right time effortlessly, meanwhile you just have to work on becoming a whole person yourself so you can be worthy of a worthy mate. The world is going to be reflecting your own feelings back at you so if you feel inadequate or negative, you will attract inadequate negative people in your life. If you feel content, positive and well-intentioned, the world will present you with the same when the time is right. So just trust the process and let go of trying to control your relationship status. Work on being happy by yourself. Somethings are in our control that we can work on, and some things are simply out of our control. People come and go, non-permanence is the fundamental truth of life. Friends and family will come and go, don’t be disheartened by it. It is good you are smart enough to understand other people’s intentions incase they cause harm to your boundaries like the phone sex dude or other creeps. Don’t get scared of such situations, there are million different types of people you’ll come across. Some will be good, some will be bad and you’ll learn the difference as time goes. Enjoy the process of growth. Once you let go of trying to fill a void with a husband or a child, you will learn to spend more time with yourself, figuring yourself out and this will help you with the problem of low job satisfaction. Maybe seeking professional therapy/counseling might help.

Hi, you are going through a period where you are feeling lonely. You are upset about not having someone in your life and you are also upset about your friends not talking to you. You are also worried about the future. You can consult a psychologist and Counseling sessions will help you. A psychologist will help and guide you with ways to feel better and positive.

Suggest you to take counseling to address SelfImage it can help you to address life with or without companion.

Hey, you can contact me for an online appointment and we can explore this narrative together

Hi... You are going through a very difficult phase in your life and I suppose you are experiencing deep emotional turmoil and anticipating a very negative future which may not be even true. We all don't need to lead the same life to be happy. Marriage, Kids, Friends, Job are just part of life and go through ups and downs. You can't expect everything to be negative just because right now it's on a down phase. 36 is just half of life, another half is still remaining and it's completely upto you to design it in the way you want. Just don't act out of your insecurities because other people can perceive that and may try to take advantage of it, not everyone but some people. Take command of your life and find out what you really want in your life. Find a purpose and it will give meaning to your life. Marriage and Kids will happen if you want but that should not be the sole purpose of your life.

I agree, it is indeed difficult to love life alone. Instead of concluding based on the current situations a d few incidents, I would still suggest you to have a family..